metamorphosis

a poem to my sunshine. does this count? it would be too long to write it in a book as i did the last time, but maybe i will do it anyway, so you can have a physical record of how embarrassing and sweet you are. you did ask me, once, what lines stayed with me and i refused to answer, after all, though not all of them are from your letters...

love you. i look forward to the many years we have together, as friends or as partners.

"a poem of my favorite things you've said to me"
(in no particular order)
hello, my sweet.
my literal fucking girlfriend: i'm your first choice?
"i do like embarrassing you" what the fuck
i'm easily motivated by cute girls.
kinda missed my bella though
same here! i've missed you. sorry if i've felt hard to reach lately. i feel like i have been
but your late night boldness is so funny.
well i wish you had talked to me as soon as you got home? no wonder something felt off about my day
missed you today. kept myself busy for it
please call me if you need anything. or even before that. just call me when you think you want to
if we meet someday, i hope you bring a camera, because i will certainly forget to take pictures. i'd probably be too busy getting caught up in the moment instead.
i fell for you so suddenly, so intently, that i startled myself.
yes, sweetheart. i've long been yours.
i love you.
had i not been terribly fond of you from the start.
go sleep so i can talk and not talk at you more tomorrow
i'd wanted to confess to you first.
your blue eyes are so cute to me. thank you for smiling
i hope i never run out of things to tell you.
this is to say that yes, oftentimes when i am free and untethered and very well know you are too, i have thought to call out to you. sometimes i do, and other times i don't for any odd number of reasons, and i later feel as though i've wasted hours i could've spent with you instead. alas
were there any specific or interesting thoughts about me aside from the obvious missing me
ugh shut up yes you are so distracting!!
i have this highly specific memory of me shopping for flower pots and you sent me an unexpected pic of your thigh highs and i had to act normal about it in the middle of the garden center
i could've fallen asleep like that. a sunny spot in the park after lunch and listening to you.
silly to think you aren't already.
darling dearest love of mine do you remember when i spoke of the clouds that looked like mountains across seattle. it appears i had forgotten the entire olympic peninsula
i can tier and still keep talking to bella at the same time!!! 😘
that's just proof positive that i like someone.
it's so cute and sweet and i love it, all of it, thank you, it's very special to me... i love you a lot
good night love
maybe it wasn't meant to be. maybe you could teach me.
i felt like such an idiot, pacing in the goodwill, registering nothing.
well i like your voice too thereforeeee i should also get more of it
but i like quiet time with you too
it was ok, i liked your quiet. it was different for me and unique. i liked the change. i wouldn't get it anywhere else
i'm motivated. it's just that i think you're trouble and i lose my hours to the wind once i sit down with you
maybe i just live in the security now that we'll do this all over again tomorrow anyway
for the sunset i try to capture for you.
leaning against someone sounds nice right now.
but, i suppose, nowadays... i see the moon and hopelessly think of you.
girl who only loves me in her final breath
this weekend felt too short... what's the point if i don't have more time with you. i guess i liked going to the zoo "with" you the most, though
you
are
so
crazy
what if i hadn't come home today
sentimentality. earlier in call i was startled by something falling down. it was a leaf, dry and white with some green and brown, from a flower arrangement that found its way to my doorstep several months back
thank you for seeing the new year with me
the poetic and sappy answer is maybe because we are far apart but seeing the same sky at the same time closes the distance just that much more.
i love u
moon or not
bitchless for years bc i hadn't felt love until i met you 💞
of course i missed you every night and day. jackass
to answer your question from a bit ago obviously i'd want you for a night and the following morning too
i've never made anyone wait like you have before.
it isn't real until i tell jessy
i will stumble, i will fall, but if you'll have me -- please let me love you, so clumsily.
for romance's sake, i'll ask you officially: will you go out with me?

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